Chronic Depression

Published April 14, 2015 by Bookworm 101

Moonies,

As you should know, I spoke out last year that I had seasonal depression, mostly the summer depression that usually shows up more often than the other seasonal ones. I have been having it for four years now. Sadly, I have bad news in regards of my issue.

Just yesterday, I had my annual meet-up with my psychologist and my results came out worse than I had expected. Maybe all the drama that has happened in the last year, especially the breakup last summer, worsens my depression, according to what my P said about it. I really don’t want to believe her results, but now there’s no turning back of the medical issues I though I may never have.

The results that the P gave me at the end of the meet up came out too quickly to her. So to speak, my depression loosens more. You must be wondering what I’m saying to begin with, right? I mean I jumped from seasonal depression to chronic depression within the year. Since my last meet-up with my psychologist last April, I was still trying to overcome with my spring/summer depression that I was having. My psychologist said that since I was in a relationship for the first time, it may be possible I was in the track of depression to lower, but I broke up with my ex on late June. So may that event, she said or the latest events that are going on in my life like graduation and more work time is stressing me out to the point that I’m not interacting much with the people I care about. Well, it’s not like I’m forcing for people to see me on my commencement ceremony on May 16, but it just saddens me that not many people are not going to see me that day. Well, I’m used to that anyways since people don’t really care about me in general.

Although Chronic Depression doesn’t really have many symptoms, it’s still deadly if not treated properly. That is why my psychologist wants me to send a monthly summary of events going on in my life; that includes a day summary of my graduation. I reallly don’t want to get my diploma now. -.-

So I’m not asking for no one’s pity on me. If you really care about me, show it. If now, don’t be around me then.

So… Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana saying that life could be cruel to you to the deepest emotions.

Anime Matsuri 2015

Published April 8, 2015 by Bookworm 101

Hey Moonies!!!

So this weekend was one of the most busiest moments of my life. You wonder why?

Well, I got the chance to volunteer for the first time on my first convention. Anime Matsuri is one of the largest growing conventions in the state of Texas and it was my chance to experience it as an attendee and as a volunteer. Last year it was in the top ten of the best anime conventions in the country, though AM is the youngest conventions in the country.

To the main thing about this, AM was full of surprises. Long lines, tech issues, meeting new people, food trucks, the guests, and the main one, lots and lots of cosplayers.

This was the year more people came in cosplays than any other year, according to what one of the few lieutenant volunteers said about it. I don’t say that it’s a good thing, is just that it is a convention in which you can show off how good you can master the cosplaying population. Then there’s the guests. I got a chance to take a signature of Todd Haberkorn, the voice actor of Hikaru from Ouran High School Host Club and Jadeite from Sailor Moon. I got the chance to supervise one of his panels and I’m glad I got a good review from him. He’s just hilarious, especially when he talks about his phone. I’ll update later with the picture of the signature he gave me.

Meeting new people was something I’m experiencing this year. Not only did I befriended with the programming team that I have volunteered with, I befriended some cosplayers that I fell in love with their cosplays. Up to this point, I never meet a really nice population of people from across the country. It felt nice to be called adorable and sweet, up to the extend of flirting (a few guys just had to try to put some moves on me while I was in my Lolita cosplay).

Food trucks were another thing I enjoyed on my first year. I got the change to try good healthy foods they have on their menu, though they pretty much looked unhealthy to the rest of the population. I just didn’t care because I was always hungry throughout the convention.

Then the volunteering part was just amazing. Due to the volunteering I did there, I got the chance to see a few panels I wanted to see so badly, though not all of them got me interested than the speed dating and Todd Haberkorn’s panel. There were a few times that we had some tech issues, but thanks with the tech department that helped us with continuing with the panels and the main events, we managed to go all the way for the attendees, especially seeing Todd Haberkorn play Flappy Birds on his iPhone. I was jsut glad that I enjoyed my shared part while volunteering, but one thing I did learn is that I’m sure not going to use high heels all day long. Half of the day, maybe, but 24 hours of the day, nope. That is due to the fact that I was standing all day long because I was supervising a few of the lines of the panels and of the main events. Other than that, I had a fun time at the convention.

I’ll just end it by saying that I have bought some stuff from the vendors, which one of the stuff I bought was something that got my attention since Day 1 of AM. It was the shirt of the Sailor Scouts with Batman in the middle. When I saw that shirt, I fell in love with it. I’m determined to find it no matter the cost of it. On my last day of the convention, I was roaming around the vendor’s room and it took me about two hours to find that shirt. Currently speaking, I’m wearing the shirt now and not only is it soft, but I’m getting attention from everyone of how adorable and awesome it is.

I was so stressful to an extend that someone lift me up because my right leg just couldn’t handle so much pain from the Lolita shoes i was wearing. I did feel a bit of safety when that person picked me up. My friend was close by when my right leg just broke down on me; I just couldn’t walk well. I kind of wanted to tell him to take me to my hotel room because I was about to fall asleep in his arms. I do have to say that I would of counted on him if anything happens to me, even if I been having trouble with my right leg for a while already.

To rate this convention, I would say the first year as an attendee and as a volunteer who had a bit of good sense of what it was going on, I would rate it a 9 of a scale to 10. Even that AM is still young, I know they can overcome other conventions in the future.

So… Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana saying Anime Matsuri was awesomely, stressful fun! ^_^

Update in Life

Published April 8, 2015 by Bookworm 101

Hey Moonies!!!

As you can see, it’s been a while since I last updated. I just feel too busy at the moment to be blogging and all that. Anyways, in the last few months I have gone through new changes and news that I still feel like it’s not yet ready.

First, I have to announce that i’m going to be graduating this spring. Can’t believe it? Me neither, but I am about to graduate in May 16. I feel a bit nervous because graduation for me was a high school. This time is to get my associate degree of government and public service, associate of arts. I do feel that I want to get over with it, but then again, I still feel like I need to take more classes at HCC because I don’t think UH or UHD will not accept me with not much college credit. I feel like I need to get as much classes so that way I don’t really have to worry about it.

Second, as some of you know me in person, I am hanging out with my ex again, as friends. Everyone still believes that we are going out, but they don’t understand that I made my mind that I’m not ready for a relationship again… So far we good, though I keep seeing some jealousy going on when I hang out with a few of my guy friends. It’s not like I do get jealous of the girls he hangs out with.

Third, transferring schools is like passing through high school again. I really don’t like applying, but I still have to get my bachelor’s degree, especially since I want to get that double major of Political Science and Business.

Fourth, I’m still going to be taking summer classes and I hope fall classes, if one of the two 4 year universities accepts me.

Other than that, I’m having a life of guidance and of good luck. I do have to say that I will be having more time to update this blog, so be on the lookout for them!

So… Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana saying enjoy what’s left of spring!!! ^_^

Happy Anniversary To My Blog!

Published January 22, 2015 by Bookworm 101

Hey Moonies!!

Guess what?

The Moonlight Serenity turned four years just a few days ago!!! Sorry about not updating anything! College has been busy these last few months and apparently I been working and sleeping during the winter break.

So I’m not sure if i’m going to be giving any changes in the blog again in the later weeks, but I think I’m going to start blogging more often because I need to keep y’all updating what’s going around me right now with college and around the world right now.

But I do have to say that I’m going to be doing some vocabulary words and quotes again, but deciding to do it weekly instead of daily, if it’s fine with y’all.

But yeah, my baby is getting older each day!! ^_^

I feel proud of my blog that it lasted this long and I’m glad y’all keep up with it even though I’m slacking off in keeping it updated. I’m trying my best to give y’all what I feel about it!

So… Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana saying that I’m excited about this year and the future of my blog!!! ^_^

Me and the Annoying Rumors

Published September 16, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Hey there Moonies!!

A lot of things went on these last few weeks and I do have to say one thing, I finally got a chance to talk to my ex and we are currently on mutual terms. So to speak, we’re friends.

Not many of our friends are showing mixed feelings about it because they think we’re back together. I actually don’t give a damn about what they say about me. I’m actually worried about what they are saying about him. What exactly he has done to them, that’s my question. I don’t get it why they are acting like lunatics when I just mention about him when he hasn’t done nothing about it.

What pissed me off is that people are getting the wrong idea that we’re back together. Come on, it’s not all relationships didn’t end well. Some relationships end up with friendships because these people care about each other, not love each other. Unless you keep stalking the person, well, you need to go see a doctor about that because you are having psychological issues from the break up.

What matters to me is that whoever supports my decision of me having him as a friend is a true friend. He has really done a lot of things for me since we first met. As some of y’all know, I first met him as a customer at the place I’m working, then I got to know him a bit when we had the same class, and lastly when we started hanging out. Since then, I really appreciated what he has done for me. Though I’m older than him by a few months, he acts older than me.

Though it’s impossible to go back to him as a boyfriend because he lied to me enough that I can’t fully trust him. If I had trusted him that much, I would of tell him my biggest, darkest secret that no one even knows about. Only one person knows about it and I still have that person under supervision because you never know that person is best friends with and tells it to the one person i cared and trusted before the breakup.

Anyhow, the rumors are getting worse than I though, because it looks like people are saying that we are telling them not to talk to people that we don’t like. Who says that you are not allowed to talk to some people? Who told you that you can’t talk to them because they did something that we don’t like? I for once saying that we, both me, nor Joel, never in our own honest words, said that you can’t speak to someone. That’s your issue if you are talking to them, we don’t care if you hang out with them or not. What we care about is that they don’t interact with us because we have issues that I didn’t like and just completely stop talking to her or that Joel just stop showing up at places because he’s not interested no more. We have our reasons and if you want to know why, just ask us. We don’t really bite nor do we get into fist fights. We are not animals, first of all. We mostly diplomat about about things. It sure takes a while, but that keeps the peace at ease in the end.

So yeah, if you are reading this Joel, you know I got your back, either financially (I’ll find a way to get you some money, I have my own contacts about getting it), physically, and mentally.

Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana talking about what has happened in my life. =)

Summary of Summer 2014

Published August 25, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Well, today officially starts the first day at school for me and billions of people across the country. For me, I’m excited for this school year because this is becoming my turning point of where my life is leading.

Though, I had a lot of things going on this summer. I really sure didn’t expect it for sure. Though life always gives you bumpy roads not smooth roads. First up was my summer depression. Some of y’all know about this since the beginning of the summer because I felt like I should have been honest to my Moonies about this. Though it got worse this summer because since summer depression makes you lose weight more than is on the other seasons, I have lost over 25 pounds in the last few months of summer. Last time I remembered, I weighted 132 pounds. That was in early April. We’re now in August, my current weight is 108 pounds. This is one thing I don’t like about this because it makes me want to think about other things I really don’t want to worsen my  issue. Also, my mood swings were as bad as it was in the first year I started having it. I have never insulted that many people, have never lied so much in my life, never acted like this in general in my life. I know that I should seek professional help to this part of my depression, but sometimes, it really doesn’t help in regards of the mood swings.

Two, I had a really rough path in regards of my breakup. I was like crying from one month after the break up, then another month of anger and despair, and now, I’m feeling like I don’t give a damn about no one’s opinion of what I’m doing. I don’t really care at the moment about him. He did hurt my feelings because what I was going to do that Sunday was to spend some time with him for our six month anniversary.

Anyways, Then comes people getting into my business, especially when they want to know about the break up. I just had enough with people telling me about forgetting him, but another thing getting in everything else in my life. I hate people getting into my business and they could get hurt if they keep nagging about it.

I think that’s all I have to say. Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana talking about what has happened in my life. =)

Fon begins beta testing a business Wi-Fi network

Published August 16, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Bookworm 101:

This is going to be interesting…

Originally posted on Gigaom:

Crowdsourced Wi-Fi internet service provider Fon plans to add a business component to its largely residential hotspot footprint. On Thursday, Fon launched a global beta program, inviting consumer-facing businesses to install a souped-up version of its Fonera router and offer internet access to Fon members and the general public.

The business network will work a bit differently than the residential one, which is essentially a closed system. Fon residential members, called Foneros, install the Fonera router, which then becomes a node in a hotspot network spanning 13 million nodes worldwide. Any other Fonera has unrestricted free access to the network, as do customers who buy access passes. These new business routers, however, will also be open to the general public for limited use depending on the discretion of the business owner.

For instance, a dentist office could chose to give an hour of free internet to anyone in its…

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When will voice-over-LTE matter? When it’s no longer just about voice

Published August 16, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Bookworm 101:

The new era of talking is around our corner than we had expected. Though, it would not be soon, it’s going to take about two years to see the changes come and all that.

Originally posted on Gigaom:

After years of delays, voice-over-LTE finally seems to be making its way into mobile networks and phones. T-Mobile recently announced its entire U.S. LTE network now supports the VoIP technology, while Verizon recently revealed it would begin selling its first 4G-only phones in 2016.

As we purchase new smartphones over the next few years, we’ll find traditional 2G phone calls receding into the past and voice or SMS becoming just another IP service. Today, however, consumers buying new VoLTE phones probably won’t notice much of a difference.

These initial VoLTE rollouts are focused solely on voice, which makes sense given the technology’s name, but apart from making the occasional HD voice call to other VoLTE device owners, the service is going to look – and cost – the same as old-school voice calls.

The real promise of VoLTE isn’t voice, but rather the raft of IP services…

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To Billie Joe Armstrong….

Published July 8, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Dear Mr. Armstrong,

I know that you have a busy schedule, but I want you to read this please. Really reconsider what I”m going to tell you.

I”m a fan of you, but not a hard rock like my ex was, if I think if he’s still classified as my ex if he was thinking that not talking in person and breaking up in the message is a really good idea to dump a girl now these days. I know that you really not into technology, but sometimes, the technology could give you a really negative side about it.

Anyhow, the purpose I’m writing this post is that I want to meet you in person. There’s a purpose I want to meet you. I want you to check some songs that I have written because I feel that you should read it specifically. I don’t want other people reading it. I’m a poet/music writer and only a few people have read it. My ex is one of the people who never got the chance to read them. Had planned for him to read them on our one year anniversary, but somehow that couldn’t be done because we broke up, I think is his view, a week or two after his birthday. Worse, is that I bought him all of Green Day’s CD albums, including Demolicious, which took me a while to find it online that was on sale.

What I have to mean about it is that some of the writing that I created was during the time I know him, my best moments with him, before I even started dating, during the time I was dating him, and after the break up. The songs are memories that I keep crying about and I don’t know if I should keep it or not because it reminds me of my special moments I had dearly spent with him. What’s worse is that he was my first and I guess my only boyfriend I will ever experience in life because I don’t want to have another breakup what I gave everything to end up not getting much in the end. I know he tried to give me even the littlest he could, but it never reached what I gave him.

Every time I hear your music now makes me want to cry because there’s some piece of him that is describe in each song that kinda fits him. It’s going to be hard to get over him, especially with y’all songs. We loved to hear it together, especially the American Idiot album. We even went to see the musical as well. It was a really lovely night I have spent it with him…. But really, awesome memories are hard to erase from a breakup.

So please hear my cry for help, if you want to classify it, to read my songs and review it. I would love to hear from you anytime soon. Don’t really matter if it takes you a year to hear this or only a week to hear about it. My email is linked to this word: Serendipity, so contacting me is not going to be that hard. Yeah, I love that word for no damn reason.

In the end, I’m kinda busy myself since I have classes, especially for a college student can’t get everything done in a few days, and work, so my schedule looks tight and I would like to be surprised in the least expected way. Don’t really mind being followed at all; really don’t give a damn of this society now, since we are followed no matter how private we try to become.

Just need you to view them. Just want you to check them out, review it, comment about it, give out your opinion and give me your final saying of what I should do to them. I really don’t know if my songs or poems you want to classify are worthy or not to be hit songs. It would also be awesome to get a selfie and send it to him that maybe this would have not happened if he did that to me. Would really appreciate.

To your greatest respect and punk on!

Diana Melendez

A New Era of Sailor Moon Just Got Released Today

Published July 5, 2014 by Bookworm 101

Hey Moonies!

Guess what today is? Come on! I know a lot of y’all already saw it. I haven’t seen it yet. Just woke up.

Anyhow, today is the day Sailor Moon Crystal comes out today and I see that the majority are happy about it. Enjoy it. Don’t let hopes ruin your day.

Mines got ruined a few weeks ago. I don’t feel the charisma that I been wanting to watch it. Just for y’all that really want to see it, watch it. I don’t know what to do now, might as well go to work with broken promises following me.

Anyhow, remember that Sailor Moon is available streaming online each first and third Saturday each month. So don’t forget about it, it’s only an episode each, not like the original that there’s ‘two new episodes’ each on Hulu. Also, it’s streaming online on NicoNico, Hulu, Neo Alley, and Crunchyroll.

Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. So this is Diana reporting that the new era of Sailor Moon is going to take over the world, but not with any hopes that one is already heartbroken and lost in that pile of pieces.

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