As you should know, I spoke out last year that I had seasonal depression, mostly the summer depression that usually shows up more often than the other seasonal ones. I have been having it for four years now. Sadly, I have bad news in regards of my issue.
Just yesterday, I had my annual meet-up with my psychologist and my results came out worse than I had expected. Maybe all the drama that has happened in the last year, especially the breakup last summer, worsens my depression, according to what my P said about it. I really don’t want to believe her results, but now there’s no turning back of the medical issues I though I may never have.
The results that the P gave me at the end of the meet up came out too quickly to her. So to speak, my depression loosens more. You must be wondering what I’m saying to begin with, right? I mean I jumped from seasonal depression to chronic depression within the year. Since my last meet-up with my psychologist last April, I was still trying to overcome with my spring/summer depression that I was having. My psychologist said that since I was in a relationship for the first time, it may be possible I was in the track of depression to lower, but I broke up with my ex on late June. So may that event, she said or the latest events that are going on in my life like graduation and more work time is stressing me out to the point that I’m not interacting much with the people I care about. Well, it’s not like I’m forcing for people to see me on my commencement ceremony on May 16, but it just saddens me that not many people are not going to see me that day. Well, I’m used to that anyways since people don’t really care about me in general.
Although Chronic Depression doesn’t really have many symptoms, it’s still deadly if not treated properly. That is why my psychologist wants me to send a monthly summary of events going on in my life; that includes a day summary of my graduation. I reallly don’t want to get my diploma now. -.-
So I’m not asking for no one’s pity on me. If you really care about me, show it. If now, don’t be around me then.
So… Any comments? Keep them short, clear, and to the point. This is Diana saying that life could be cruel to you to the deepest emotions.